i am resolved
it's been an eventful year. i always feel philosophical at this time of year (well, maybe at all times of the year, but especially when the year is new) it's just after 4:30 p.m. and the sun is going down, painting the sky out my window with a gorgeous watercolor wash. we have spectacular sunrises and sunsets here. i like to think it's old Sol's way of apologising for not staying long each winter's day. he comes up with a crescendo, an exquisitely slow fanfare that builds to an ecstasy of color all over the land, and goes away gently, like a lover's long, wistful kiss - loathe to part, and promising to return soon.
i like new year's resolutions. they make me think about what i like about my life, and what i don't like. if there isn't enough of the good stuff, or if there's too much of the bad stuff, i'm not happy. so new year's is a time for me to think about the state of my world, and what i can do about it. perhaps resolutions have got a bad rap because people are unrealistic about them. there's something about a whole new year spreading ahead of us that's inspiring and daunting at the same time - like a clean sheet of paper, waiting for words or color, or music. so we get a bit over-ambitious. with our cultural background of immediate gratification and 'bigger is better', we make resolutions based on what we've been told we should want, instead of what we can realistically achieve and contribute. we often make promises to ourselves based on superficial things, not on things that will make the world a better place, and us, in the end, happier people.
a few years ago i resolved to lose weight. i was 40 lbs or more overweight, depressed and unhealthy. it seemed that the slightest strain or upset resulted in sprains and injuries, and i was tired all of the time. i had also developed repetetive stress injuries from practicing my violin. i'd been very active for most of my life, but i'd become sedentary. to make a long story shorter, it occurred to me that at least some of my problems might be alleviated by taking some of the load off my joints and getting back some muscle tone. so i started walking, swimming, cycling, weight training and planning my meals more carefully. over the course of those several years i've lost 30 of those pounds, and i'm confident that the last 10 will follow. i like my new lifestyle. i'm strong, healthy, energetic and, for the most part, content. it was only one resolution, but it's taking longer than one year to accomplish. and that's just fine. because the issue is quality of life, over the long term. there is no instant fix.
having just helped with a biodiesel conference in our town, environmental issues are fresh in my mind. i live in a community where these things are not taken seriously. but i take them seriously. so i am resolved that my lifestyle must reflect the things i claim to believe in. the footprint i'm leaving is bigger than the creature who leaves it, and it cuts too deeply. i believe one person can, and should make a difference.
so i'm making plans for some big changes. firstly, i'll move to the town where i work, where i can walk to the office instead of commuting. it's undecided whether i'll sell my lovely little renovated church in its country village, or rent it out. though it's small by today's standards, it is far too big for one lone woman. it wants a family sitting noisily around the table or roasting marshmallows over the campfire in the back yard. the maple trees in the yard call out for children to swing from their branches, and hang hammocks from them. the greenhouse produces more food than i can eat and give away. i'll buy a smaller house here, and begin learning how to get some, at least, of my energy needs from alternative sources. there's an inkling of an idea for a small part-time business producing, selling and promoting goods made from local materials ... perhaps first at the local farmer's market... once all the ingredients are all in the pot of thought, and the soup of ingenuity has had time to simmer, something tasty may result.
i resolve to be more in the present, doing the creative things that strengthen and deepen me, and less controlled by the demands of others. i have begun using my coffee breaks at work to draw - two fifteen minute sketches a day, every weekday. perhaps i'll alternate drawing with writing. Lindsay Lobe has suggested joining a writer's group. i'll take his advice, and be disciplined about my craft. i have whole scribblers of ideas and outlines for stories, plays, magazine articles and books nagging me to write them. published or not, the only shame is in not trying.
i'm a list maker. so i'll make a list of the things i mean to spend my time on, the skills i want to develop, with realistic goals for each of them. i'll post it on the refridgerator in my new home, where it will remind me to be faithful, and not fickle. and i'll keep it short, and realistic. more discipline.
this spring i'll celebrate my 50th birthday full of plans and ideas and hopes for the future. after all, 50 is the new 30!
i like new year's resolutions. they make me think about what i like about my life, and what i don't like. if there isn't enough of the good stuff, or if there's too much of the bad stuff, i'm not happy. so new year's is a time for me to think about the state of my world, and what i can do about it. perhaps resolutions have got a bad rap because people are unrealistic about them. there's something about a whole new year spreading ahead of us that's inspiring and daunting at the same time - like a clean sheet of paper, waiting for words or color, or music. so we get a bit over-ambitious. with our cultural background of immediate gratification and 'bigger is better', we make resolutions based on what we've been told we should want, instead of what we can realistically achieve and contribute. we often make promises to ourselves based on superficial things, not on things that will make the world a better place, and us, in the end, happier people.
a few years ago i resolved to lose weight. i was 40 lbs or more overweight, depressed and unhealthy. it seemed that the slightest strain or upset resulted in sprains and injuries, and i was tired all of the time. i had also developed repetetive stress injuries from practicing my violin. i'd been very active for most of my life, but i'd become sedentary. to make a long story shorter, it occurred to me that at least some of my problems might be alleviated by taking some of the load off my joints and getting back some muscle tone. so i started walking, swimming, cycling, weight training and planning my meals more carefully. over the course of those several years i've lost 30 of those pounds, and i'm confident that the last 10 will follow. i like my new lifestyle. i'm strong, healthy, energetic and, for the most part, content. it was only one resolution, but it's taking longer than one year to accomplish. and that's just fine. because the issue is quality of life, over the long term. there is no instant fix.
having just helped with a biodiesel conference in our town, environmental issues are fresh in my mind. i live in a community where these things are not taken seriously. but i take them seriously. so i am resolved that my lifestyle must reflect the things i claim to believe in. the footprint i'm leaving is bigger than the creature who leaves it, and it cuts too deeply. i believe one person can, and should make a difference.
so i'm making plans for some big changes. firstly, i'll move to the town where i work, where i can walk to the office instead of commuting. it's undecided whether i'll sell my lovely little renovated church in its country village, or rent it out. though it's small by today's standards, it is far too big for one lone woman. it wants a family sitting noisily around the table or roasting marshmallows over the campfire in the back yard. the maple trees in the yard call out for children to swing from their branches, and hang hammocks from them. the greenhouse produces more food than i can eat and give away. i'll buy a smaller house here, and begin learning how to get some, at least, of my energy needs from alternative sources. there's an inkling of an idea for a small part-time business producing, selling and promoting goods made from local materials ... perhaps first at the local farmer's market... once all the ingredients are all in the pot of thought, and the soup of ingenuity has had time to simmer, something tasty may result.
i resolve to be more in the present, doing the creative things that strengthen and deepen me, and less controlled by the demands of others. i have begun using my coffee breaks at work to draw - two fifteen minute sketches a day, every weekday. perhaps i'll alternate drawing with writing. Lindsay Lobe has suggested joining a writer's group. i'll take his advice, and be disciplined about my craft. i have whole scribblers of ideas and outlines for stories, plays, magazine articles and books nagging me to write them. published or not, the only shame is in not trying.
i'm a list maker. so i'll make a list of the things i mean to spend my time on, the skills i want to develop, with realistic goals for each of them. i'll post it on the refridgerator in my new home, where it will remind me to be faithful, and not fickle. and i'll keep it short, and realistic. more discipline.
this spring i'll celebrate my 50th birthday full of plans and ideas and hopes for the future. after all, 50 is the new 30!
posted by grannyfiddler at 4:53 PM
3 Comments:
some major resolutions there!!
hope this year is a good one for you.
An interesting and evocative posting as I loved your use if words; memorable word picture of sunrises and sunsets.
I am also not one for New Year’s resolutions. I remind members of our Malawi Group not to become too depressed about the state of that nation, enjoy our fellowship, doing inexpensive inclusive fund raising activities that unite our community to share the fruits of the proceeds with our friends and fellow travelers. I think small communities are best to respond within their own sphere, to influence and share common goals whilst accommodating our differences.
Congratulations on losing all that weight, my wife has suffered from a propensity to put on weight very easily so I know how difficult it is to lose.
You may be interested to know I am thinking of buying my next car fuelled by diesel with a special filter that ensures no emissions enter the atmosphere.
I don’t think you need to make quick decisions as to whether to sell or buy, we sold our large family home some 5 years ago and have rented in a delightful spot, close to all facilities and it’s worked out very well for us. We invested the proceeds from the House; those investments have performed very well.
Either way moving in closer and or starting that business sounds a good idea, and no doubt will assume lots of your energy in 2007. Making lists of things to do I also think is great idea, it makes me feel god to tick them off, even small aspects on a daily basis. I turned 6o last year, I think as you get older you become more emotional and appreciate more the need to smell the roses as they say!!-take it easy !!
Best wishes
the moving closer resolution seems to be happening... am going to see about a mortgage this morning, on a little house in town with a little garage out back that will make a lovely studio. got someone who wants to lease my house in the country who's very excited about the big garden and the greenhouse.
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